An apology 10 years in the making...

I click on my uber annoying myspace account to delete what I assume are more spam letters from 'Pam who cant sleep' or 'Beth who wants to chat on 1-900...' I see a note from a Sherry that is titled, 'I have owed you this for a long time' I was awaiting a massive sex filled viagra spam but this is what I read:


----------------- Original Message -----------------

Hi Cator.

This is really difficult and I don't know if you even remember, but I owe you a huge apology. I am so sorry that when I saw you at La Fonda after you came out, I acted like an asshole.

First off, it wasn't you. Although I was somewhat surprised to see you "out," I always knew. I mean, we used to sing Ru Paul together?? You just happened to catch me at one of the lower points in my life and I didn't want you to see me, if that makes any sense. I was hanging out with losers that I didn't like and doing a bunch of other dumb shit that still makes me cringe to think about.

The next time I saw you, at the Diesel store, you were totally cold and I knew exactly why and that I totally deserved it. I skulked out like a coward because I couldn't put the words together. I owe you an apology for that, too.

You have probably long forgotten about this or put it behind you, but I haven't. I've actually thought about it a good bit over the years. It is possibly the single worst thing I've done in my life and certainly the worst I've ever treated anyone. I hope one day you can forgive me, but I understand if you can't. I just wanted to take the opportunity to try and right one of the bigger mistakes/regrets I've made. I am so sorry. Even as I sit here writing this, I'm mortified by the way I acted.

I hope all is well and that you're happy and doing great. Take care.

Sherry

Here is what I wrote back:

Sorry to say I have no idea who you are. And your profile is set to private.
Uh, if you got made as much fun of as I did you dont remember every time. La Fonda was one of my favorite places I went to weekly in high school so I probably put any negative thoughts in the delete box of my brain.

That said, it is always nice to hear an apology for actions taken. Thanks. Funny, I'm moving to London in January to work on a book about my life of being a loser gay kid to becoming a successful writer and man about town in NYC.
Maybe this will make the cut!

LOOKING FORWARD TO HEARING WHO SHERRY IS! HOW CAN I FORGET A PERSON I USED TO SING RUPAUL WITH??